Bring More Knives.

After months

and months

and months of searching.

I was able to acquire the audio files for

"Dreams of Stabbing and/or Being Stabbed (2001)" - My Chemical Romance

better known as the "Attic Demos"

(I got them over MSN, from some kid in Australia)

Unfortunately, though my mission was to get all

the albums in hard copy,

it seems that mp3 files is all I will be able to get for this.

Crossed Off.

Recent Album Purchases

A.k.a. Things to cross off my list.

"Enema Of The State (1999)" - Blink-182

"Conviction (2007)" - Aiden

"...Is A Real Boy/...Was A Real Boy (2004)" - Say Anything

{Listening To: "Snuff On Digital" - Blaqk Audio}

They should have a t-shirt for Master Procrastinator.

The Playlist Of The Past Few Days:

"Adam's Song" -Blink 182

"Early Sunsets Over Monroeville" -My Chemical Romance

"No One Would Riot For Less" -Bright Eyes

"Invincible" -Muse

'The Sky Is Falling" -Aiden

"The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot (Acoustic)" -Brand New

"My Rights Vs. Yours" -The New Pornographers

"Bliss" -Muse

"Cute Without The 'E' (Acoustic)" -Taking Back Sunday

"Demolition Lovers" -My Chemical Romance

"They Looked Like Strong Hands" -Bayside

"Lover I Don't Have To Love" -Bright Eyes

"Silent Eyes" -Aiden

"Endlessly" -Muse

"I've Been Eating (For You)" -Bright Eyes

"Today" -Smashing Pumpkins

"Escape" -Muse

"Suicide Note" -Johnettes Napolitano

"Hurt" -Nine Inch Nails

"Showbiz" -Muse

//Love Is The Red Rose//

My day has been made.

My chem was in AP this month =)

I Like You Better On Your Knees.

After that madness
of school deadlines..
I feel Homefree.

Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.
Eight & a half more days of school.

...I think I've played that one out....

{Listening To: "The Ballad Of Sal Villanueva" - Taking Back Sunday}

I think I'm getting carpal tunnel syndrome.
No, wait... that's from jacking off.

I think I'm getting a heart murmur.
My heart sounds irregular.
But that's probably just caffeine.

I think I'm getting fat.
It's all those vegan cookies.


Damn hypochondriac.

My Stomach hates me.
My Intestines want me dead.
My brain is going on strike.

This name-brand water tastes delicious.
It's the God to the coffee's Satan.


And I consciously exaggerate for journalistic effect.

I think my short-term memory is dying.
I read a line of my paper,
scroll down,
and immediately forget what I just read.


It's all that coffee.
This coffee is rancid.
This coffee is the taste of death and eternal damnation all in one.
This coffee tastes like someone just sucked out the grey matter of my brain.
This coffee taste like someone just stole my wallet.

I still want a tofurky sandwich.

Well, What Did You Expect?

I procrastinate for 3 months,
and then I'm frustrated that I have to do a 15 page paper
in 12 hours.

Idiot.

It's a mind-numbing river of caffeine and reality TV.
Screw you TV.
Your late night shows blow.

...not that I'm still procrastinating.

I think I want a sandwich.
I'm thinking Tofurky, Vegan cheese & Mustard on Rye.

and some chocolate soy milk.
man...I really live on the edge.

Time Of Your Life.

David Cook won American Idol.

...notthatIcare. =)

as cheesy as it is...

people accomplishing their goals on live TV

makes me sad happy.

THINK HAPPY (MUTHERFUCKING) THOUGHTS.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE BLAMED FOR TEEN SUICIDE.

Memorable quotes from this article:

"Two weeks before her death, she started following U.S. band My Chemical Romance."

"One of the foremost of these "suicide cult" bands is My Chemical Romance, from New Jersey."

"One of their songs contains the lyrics: "Although you're dead and gone, believe me your memory will go on."
---------------------------------------------

I'm going to say this with all the due respect
to someone who was obviously troubled.
It's always a tragedy when someone commits suicide,
especially when they're 13.

But once again,
the media has used a band/music genre
as scapegoat.

Using this girl's death to target a band
cheapens her.
And the band is seriously misrepresented.
This is a band who's self-proclaimed purpose is to SAVE LIVES.
And they don't often let you forget it.

"If you, or someone you know are severely depressed, you need to fucking talk to someone! Your best friend, your mom, somebody at school. I don't give a fuck, because pissing away your life on suicide is fucking bull shit!"
-Gerard Way.

"Like, you should never want to hurt yourself. You should love yourself." -Gerard Way

Maybe the blame should be placed on society.
After all,
she's been part of this profoundly misguided society for 13 years.
She only listened to My Chemical Romance for two weeks.

{Listening to: "HEADFIRST FOR HALOS" - MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE}

Wake Up. You're Alive.

-About 19,000 young adults attempted suicide in the U.K. last year.

-In the U.S. this year, nearly 33,000 people will commit suicide.

-88 Americans die by suicide EVERY DAY.

-Nearly 1 of 10 students in the U.S. self-injures.

-1 of 4 self-injurers started before the age of 13.

Rescue Is Possible.

 

TO WRITE LOVE ON HER ARMS 

Yeah. Staying Alive.

...Staying alive is the single hardest thing in life.

Devotion, Desire & a Steady Stream of Alcohol.

Bukowski.


Care for a dose
of cynicism?

{Listening To: "Blame It On Bad Luck" -Bayside}

Tortures Of The Damned-To-Monotony.

.ALTER-EGOs. (The Other "I")

It's an intriguing concept, for various reasons.

One such reason is merely the romanticism of fantasy.

Make yourself up.

Polarize yourself.

Skew the colors. Skew your positives & negatives.

Become.Anyone.You.Want.

And then there is the aspect of cowardice.

You need not take responsibility

when you can say you were only playing a role.

No repercussions.

No guilt.

Hide in a shell of your own mind.

Present yourself as strong and unfazed.

Scream obscenities.

Jump off a cliff.

Slam your car into a wall.

Nothing.Can.Touch.You.When.You're.Not.You.

It also gives one depth,

There is a fucked-up postmodern disenchanting quality

with casting aside your skin.

Taking on a new persona.

Don't you want to talk to that person

who is not really a person,

more of a character, really?

Much more interesting than

the solitary pifalls of a modern existence.

Be a count.

Be a vampire.

Be a fucking superhero.

All.The.Cool.Kids.Are.Doing.It.

Chinaski.ZiggyStardust.ThePatient.Mr.Hyde.Batman.

{Listening To: "A Long December" -Bayside}

This Is How We Roll In 'The Land of Make Believe'.

I was awake until 3:00 AM last night.

But here I am, awake ate 8 in the damn morning.

Julia= caffeine powered.

at least it's a 'green' energy source.

I am currently writing my paper on Bukowski

& his disenchantment with American soul-darkening monotony.

I'm contemplating using lyric from 'Cubicles' (My Chem)

Also...I want to advocate the Aiden album 'Conviction'.

It's stellar.

To listen to, not in a obsessive I-am-going-to-model-my-life-after-Wil-Francis way.

but in a I-want-to-listen-to-something-rad, way.

It has a lot of heart-pumping choruses with

invigorating yells and crowd singing.

If you haven't already listened to it

I reccomend:

-Teenage Queen

-The Sky Is Falling

-One Love

-She Will Love You.

Just listen to the whole damn album.

It's Sunday,

wtf else are you doing at the moment?

{Listening To: "Believe" -Aiden}

Ghostbuster Famous.

Daily Scrumdiddly-umptiousness:


um...this makes me salivate.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

ANNA: "'Sexy' sounds so phony, taking a page out of Holden's book..."
JULIA: "Fo' Sho!"
ANNA: "Ma' Nizzle!"
JULIA: "What? That only comes after Fo' SHIZZLE!"

Three Cheers For The MCRmy.

THE BLACK PARADE IS DEAD! 

release date: JUNE 24th 2008

Dead!

I'm a scrappy little person.

I've been wanting THIS damn sweatshirt for.....ever?

But, of course...I'm broke.

I spent all my money on this My Chem watch on Ebay.

SO...anyways....I made my own shirt.

Hence, my being SCRAPPY.

Yes, It took a lot of creativity & effort.

& also, ignore my stupid bubble gum.

I'm a douchebag.

I'm A Fucking Fairy.

I just spent about an hour and a half

making my CD shopping list.

No wonder I don't get anything important done.

Balls.

Hmm..

I Do believe I'm a tad addicted to My Chem & Gerard Way.

But Just a tad, you know?

It's not like I model my outfits or behaviours after him.

It's not like I imitate him, ever.

Meh....who am I kidding?

Observe:

Gerard Way (Rock Star)

Julia (Gerard Way Wannabe)

CD Shopping List Part Three.

Muse


- "Muse" (1998)
- "Showbiz" (1999)
- "Muscle Museum" (1999)
- "Random 1-8" (2000)
- "Origin Of Symmetry" (2001)
- "Plug In Baby" (2001)
- "New Born" (2001)
- "Dead Star/In Your World" (2002) - "Hullabaloo" (2002)

- "Absolution" (2003)

- "Absolution Tour" (2004)

- "Black Holes & Revelations" (2006)

- "H.A.A.R.P." (2008)

Blink-182


- "Buddha" (1993)
- "Cheshire Cat" (1994)
- "Dude Ranch" (1997)
- "Enema Of The State" (1999)
- "Take Off Your Pants & Jacket" (2001)
- "Blink-182" (2003)
- "Greatest Hits" (2005)


The Smashing Pumpkins


- "Gish" (1991)
- "Siamese Dream" (1993)
- "Mellon Collie & The Infinite Sadness" (1995)
- "Adore" (1998)
- "Machina/The Machines of God" (2000)
- "Machina II/The Friends & Enemies of Modern Music" (2000)
- "Zeitgeist" (2007)


Green Day

- "1,039/Smoothed Out Slappy Hours" (1991)
- "Kerplunk" (1992)
- "Dookie" (1994)
- "Insomniac" (1995)
- "Nimrod" (1997)
- "Warning" (2000)
- "International Superhits!" (2001)
- "Shenanigans" (2002)
- "American Idiot" (2004)
- "Bullet In A Bible" (2005)


SO....It should take a good...1000 years
to complete this collection.


Hey! Now you know what to get me for my birthday/christmas/graduation...etc.
or...If you just feel like getting me a present. =)

CD Shopping List Part Two.

Bayside


- "Long Stories Short" (2003)
- "Sirens & Condolences" (2004)
- "Bayside" (2005)
- "Bayside Acoustic" (2006)
- "The Walking Wounded" (2007)


Aiden


- "Our Gang's Dark Oath" (2004)
- "Nightmare Anatomy" (2005)
- "Rain In Hell" (2006)
- "Conviction" (2007)


Brand New


- "Your Favorite Weapon" (2001)
- "Deja Entendu" (2003)
- "The Holiday" (2003)
- "The Devil & God Are Raging Inside Me" (2006)


Taking Back Sunday


- "Taking Back Sunday" (2001)
- "Tell All Your Friends" (2002)
- "Where You Want To Be" (2004)
- "Louder Now" (2006)
- "Louder Now: PartOne" (2006)
- "Louder Now: PartTwo" (2007)

CD shopping List Part One.

CD SHOPPING LIST PART ONE (red is ones I own)


My Chemical Romance:



- "Dreams of Stabbing And/Or Being Stabbed" (2002)
- "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love" (2002)
- "Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge" (2004)
- "Life On The Murder Scene" (2006)
- "The Black Parade" (2006)
- "AOL Sessions" (2007)
- "Live & Rare" (2007)
- "The Black Parade Is Dead!"

Being my favorite band, I want everything they've ever recorded.
(Obscure Japan releases included)




The Used


- "The Used" --The Used (2002)
- "Maybe Memories" --The Used (2003)
- "In Love & Death" --The Used (2004)
- "Berth" --The Used (2007)
- "Lies For The Liars" --The Used (2007)
- "Shallow Believer" --The Used (2008)

Bright Eyes

- "A Collection Of Songs Written & Recorded 1995-1997" (1998)
- "Letting Off The Happiness" (1998)
- "Fevers & Mirrors" (2000)
- "Lifted Or The Story Is In The Soil, Keep Your Ear To The Ground" (2002)
- "I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning" (2005)
- "Digital Ash In A Digital Urn" (2005)
- "Motion Sickness: Live Recordings" (2005)
- "Noise Floor (Rarities: 1998-2005)" (2006)
- "Cassadaga" (2007)

Say Anything


- "Baseball" (2001) - "Menorah/Majora" (2002)
- "For Sale" (2004)
- "...Is A Real Boy" (2004)

- "In Defense Of The Genre" (2007)

- "This Is Forever" (to be announced)

It's Called The Music Business.

So.

I had an epiphany of sorts.

And I have henceforth decided that I am going

to purchase, as in buy, as in pay for, all the CDs of

my favorite bands:

-My Chemical Romance

-The Used

-Bright Eyes

-Say Anything

-Bayside

-Brand New

-Aiden

-Taking Back Sunday

-Muse

-Pink Floyd

-Blink-182

-Smashing Pumpkins

-Green Day

So...the total price should be around....

A BAJILLION DOLLARS.

more or less.

ahh....I need a job to support this addiction.

Catch The Wind, We're Gonna See It Spin.

I've got a list a mile long of things I should be doing.

I should start my Bukowski paper.

I should start my Gun Control paper.

I should do my laundry.

I should go get some exercise.

I should drink less caffeine.

I should go take a shower.

...but I won't.

We both know that.

I'm a lazy, lazy person

and I will most likely just continue searching

random things in google.

{Listening To: "Tonight, Tonight" by Smashing Pumpkins}

I Don't Mind The Sun Sometimes.

Holla.

It is...7:21 am.
almost time for school.

bladdity blah blah.

Oh HOLY CRAP

I am crazy, crazy jazzed for this weekend:

>>> MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE & TAKING BACK SUNDAY>>>>

at Madison Square Garden.




{Listening To: "Headfirst For Halos" -My Chemical Romance}

The Jingle Jangle Morning.

THE JINGLE JANGLE MORNING.

It's not that difficult Mr. Castro.

(If you're not into American Idol, just ignore me)

.....sigh.

ANYWHO.

Yesterday, Anna & I went to this little yard sale

and bought some records:

-Fleetwood Mac

-Billy Idol

-the Westside Story soundtrack.

......and a velvety vest thing.

It's soft.

TODAY

Anna & Rachael & I walked to the music store.

Anna got some records:

-Grease soundtrack.

-The Rolling Stones

Rachael got Blondie.

erm....yeah.

that's it.

OH.

and I got asked if I was a "blood",

I was wearing a bright pink bandana

that apparently appeared red.

YEAH....I really look like a gang member.

{Listening To: "Pepper" -My Chemical Romance}

You Slept Safe, And Close To The Window.

SATs were today.

I bomb-diggity-bombed the math part.

Ahh....me & numbers don't mix too well.

My essay was stellar though.

I was both pretentiously annoying and mildly charming. =)

Anywhosit...I haven't been on my PC lately.

I was having sort of a technological aversion.

Meh...but it couldn't last too long.

I'm too conveniently addicted.

Err..this week was uneventful to the extreme.

Highlight?

-I bought "8 Mile" and that The Doors' movie for 10 dollars.

.Total. 

God/Jesus/Allah/Buddha/Satan/whatever-the-hell-else-you-believe-in

bless Wal-Mart.

Oh...and I got "IV" by Chuck Klosterman (one of my favorite books) ON CD.

(as in, I can listen to it on my Ipod whenever I damn well please)

 

Attention: this man is the definition of RAD.

& his voice is just about as nasal and whiny as I expected.

Eh..I'm going to go take some predictably trite

pictures with my sister...

and then...

I'll probably go watch Eminem get in on 

with Brittany Murphy.

....RAUNCHY.....

What are YOU going to do with today?

{Listening To: "A Decade Under The Influence" - Taking Back Sunday}